I was in my car one day on my way home and i took this picture. I thought about how long its been since I’ve last been on a plane. The thing about flying is that whether your coming or going theirs always someone in the other end you have to let go and say goodbye. Even a “see you later” wouldn’t suffice because you don’t know when the next time you’ll see them again. I remembered thinking about all the many times I’ve been on an airplane and coming back with so many new memories to remember. I remembered not ever wanting to leave any of the those places once i got their but knew that leaving will happen sooner or later. The thing about planes is that once your on them theirs no turning back. It takes you to places you only dream about going to and at the end of the day your laughing and smiling because you took a chance of going somewhere new and beautiful to create new memories in your scrapbook.

There are days that everything feels like the world is crumbling beneath you. Then there are days that not even your hunger can slow you down. I find myself looking out the window in hopes of seeing something new. Hoping that outside that window a new canvas was painted. I find myself strolling our old neighborhood park where the swings are rusty and make that squeeky sound when the wind pushes through it. I find myself saying goodbye when i should say ill see you later because nothing you love should ever have an ending. Some days the world will fight you to knock you down, and letting it happen is your biggest mistake. When i was seventeen, i remember one summer during a hurricane season, it was windy, the sky was grey but you could still see the beauty of the clouds trying to shine through all the grayness. I remember i was supposed to be in school that day but instead i decided to go to the beach. I remember it being empty and the only people there were tourist taking pictures. What a great time for tourist right? Anyways, i sat on the sand running it through my fingers. I watched the guys surfing out in the ocean and all i could think about was how much i wish i could be out their letting the waves take me far away. I decided to try the water. It was warm and relaxing, the amount of strength the waves had over a girl who only weighed 105 was ridiculous. I fought through it anyways. I remember leaving the beach that day and feeling at peace with myself because i had realized that noone can bring me down if i didn’t let them.

Live by this. Your life will change! <3

I knew when i was a little girl what the world would ask of me. I knew i would grow up to be friendly yet loyal. I knew that Cinderella was just a fairy tale and the chances of that happening was slim to none. I knew i would make something of myself but i didn’t know what and i still don’t know what it is. When i was a little girl i remember always seeing only the good in everything and everyone because i didn’t want to believe that bad existed. I knew i was a character and by character i mean that i was and still am so full of life and energy. Through my eyes i saw what could be mine one day. 

I found myself climbing a rock wall without no thought of what would happen if i were to fall. I felt myself sinking without thinking who would pull me out of the water. I found myself diving from an airplane not thinking what if the parachute doesn’t come out when i tug on it. The thing is that their are times in life where you become so overwhelmed with so much things you loose track of everything to the point where you cant even think the same anymore; to the point where what once used to seem like the obvious thing to do seems like the hardest one that comes to mind. I found myself confused on decisions i should make because everything becomes a decision that’s needed. Every thought becomes your next move in life your next step or decision for that matter. Life is all about how you play it. Its just like a game, you either play it and keep going or somewhere down the line you let it defeat you; but that’s where you shouldn’t want to end up. That is where i saw myself heading. I saw myself letting myself fall and not picking myself back up. I saw me sinking and not throwing that buoy to bring me back up for air. I have been letting the game of life defeat me because i got closer and closer to that side when i should have been going the other way. the point is to catch yourself. It’s never to late to turn around and throw that lifesaver. It is never to late to keep playing the game of life and defeating it. Their will always be enough time to make a change for yourself when its to make a better decision and im glad to have finally thrown myself that buoy to gasp for air.